[19] how.. .

how come..i thought i'm tough enough...
but now..you are all in my mind.. .since last friday..
i have a midterm test tomorrow.,
but i cldnt even deal wth tht notes..
all my mind is just you.. .
switching off d lights..playing d familiar songs..
lying on d bed..rolling on d bed..
hugging snowy.. .hiding under d blanket..
thinking nonsense here n thr..thinking about you infact.. .
goshh..i did nth!how could i behave like this, esp thr'l b a midterm tmr.?
i really feel like slapping myslf..indeed..
i'm jz like a shit...
how could i be in this way for hours n hours..?
i doun wish to behave like this also..
but i jz cant control..i jz cant stop it..
wat am i supposed to do..how...
help...i'm so headache..
i feel so hard..so helpless. ..
i'm so sorry..for being this useless..sorry.. .


*ChristinaNg